Thursday, October 18, 2007

You See...

There comes a time every few months where i go back in time for plus hours looking through my old stuff from people on MySpace, messages especially, kind of like a real-time MySpace diary over the last few years. Not only am I looking at received messages but I am also looking at the things I have sent.

The point at which I am coming to in saying all this is, no matter how hard I try, I try not to get myself to distressed about the past. The reason I go over them is because, as someone once said to me, I am very nostalgic; despite that, I am not a great fan of the past, but I am not a great follower of science fiction, so I know that the great ball of fire in the sky will continue to rise and set. Unfortunately, looking back on what has happened allows me to realise how many people I have gained and lost over these short years. Alyssa once said the kindest things to me and now she secretly destroys my thoughts, Vanessa once was the greatest supporter of my worries, yet now she is with something that is meant to be greater than my friendship, Elise doesn't even bother seeing me at least once a month anymore and, Matthew. Matt was the best of the best and because of a threatening mistake he had made, I dislike even hearing his name. I don't know how I thought that the end of last year would start a greater year because despite Alyssa, the Mills' and the targeted violence that was set upon me, it's a ball compared to the brilliant beings I lost this lovely year of '07. I was introduced to limited happiness, nothing lasts forever and that's what sucks about beginnings, they end no matter how strong.
I am not going to say I hate life because life gives me the ability to type this, but I hate the way this world revolves around the appearance of better things.

Thursday, September 6, 2007

Sydney Shuts Down, Bush Goes Cycling.

Three hundred and sixteen million Australian dollars (AU$316, 000, 000) spent on a concrete/wire wall which fences off the Sydney CBD ( ruining apart of our very own Royal Botanical Gardens ) and 1800 APEC security guards; not to mention the luxury accommodation, cruises and meal reservations, following a privatised Opera House event and a fireworks display for our beloved leaders, and on the other side of the wall, the people of Sydney are faced with chaos as traffic, public transport and emergency services are cut as companies watch their coins diminish in this productive APEC week,
and while this is going on
what is George W. Bush off doing?
Bike riding.

" Which way is APEC? "

Thursday, June 7, 2007


And once again..

I thought keeping it to myself was my biggest talent...

But by the end of the day, it turned out that shutting my mouth was my biggest mistake.

And he made it over and over again.

Sunday, March 11, 2007

Just a thought.

Last night, I was at someone's house up the road from mine watching the view of the city, the Centrepoint Tower being my main focus, I commented on how I've always been amazed how a suburb so west of the Sydney CBD, can still have a clear view of the figure.

So, today I'm walking from the University of Sydney to roam the city for an hour or two and I suddenly find myself basically in front of the famous landmark we had been observing the night before from a far. Let's face it, I was stunned. Sure, I've been in the Tower before, but it's quite mind boggling to think about something I could see from my area is so dominant that it takes a thirty-five minute train ride effort to stand in front of the beast.

Then, this sprouted another point, something irrelevant but a good way of explaining some of my friendships I have with people, using this as an analogy. For example, I have a friend, we will call her Ash. A few years back, Ash was going out with a guy from my school and for over a year I heard her name time and time again. I soon discovered that the picture I had drawn in my head that was her was the complete opposite. At this point in time, Ash was just another girl to me, someone who would walk in and then walk out, as most do.

In present time, I find myself in constant contact with her, previously in lust with her. Between this and concrete giants you can see no matter where you go, it shows us a point of view that if you travel far enough, you discover things, you find whatever it is you're looking for, perhaps naturally or intentionally.
Just thought I'd get that out there.